I have to be up for work in 6 hours.
Usually I am very strict with myself to get an early night so I’m not tired for work the following day, however recently I’ve been overcome with a sense of apathy when it comes to such things.
I hate my job, I’ve never even tried to pretend I’ve ever liked it and more so recently it’s becoming more of a task to continue to be employed where I do.
It’s very, very difficult to work in a place that makes you cripplingly depressed, surrounded by people you don’t like but having to pretend you do, drawing the short straw when it comes to favouritism, giving up every social opportunity because you’re either at work or don’t have the energy for it, and never getting a hint of gratitude or recognition despite giving up most weekday evenings and Saturdays to make sure everything is good to go for the next day.
I have to stay there to be able to afford to live, but I have to leave to want to live.
I dunno. Maybe I’m just tired.